yesterday one one of the best days of my life i was the first squad leader of alpha company so i was in front during the homecoming parade but several hours later at 10:00
I went from being happy to just completely broken. one of my friends a Cenikor richard y was terminated from the program . hey was a great friend of mine. i just dont think i can take another loss like that because i have had several friends who eventually moved away.
ive never had a friend who've lasted more than 5 or 6 years and this just hurts me so much i dont want to say any more so let me just in this entry with a quote from paint it black by the rolling stones

No colors anymore I want them to turn black

I have to turn my head until my darkness goes

I see a line of cars and they're all painted black
With flowers and my love both never to come back
I see people turn their heads and quickly look away
Like a new born baby it just happens every day

I look inside myself and see my heart is black

No more will my green sea go turn a deeper blue
I could not foresee this thing happening to you